It's been quite a while

In the past few days, while busily parading about in the image of good seminarian, I need to vent a bit. If "good" entails no cursing, no vices, no false motives, no dishonesty, and conformity of beliefs in dialogue then I've finally tipped in favor of "bad." But just enough to hang onto the fence like a child pushing (or hanging on to) his limits. Okay, perhaps I've crossed the line a bit into full blown "bad" but I dart back to the fence. Interesting how we straddle the fence of "good" and "bad." (People work with me; I know there is no real fence and I'm in danger of categorically misconstruing the idea of one fence, but it just so happens to be the way I'm thinking right now; deal). Anyway, I prance around seminary putting on smart Tim, carrying my morning, afternoon, evening coffee with me, chit-chatting with acquaintances, taking notes, making comments, studying...But when I get home seminary Tim wears off and I slip into real Tim. But in case people from the seminary are reading, I'll spare the details, but for those of you who know me...try not to reveal anything; we wouldn't want to scare people, pervert them, or lead them to our straying from reality into something else. YOU Guys know what I mean!! David, don't say anything! Anyway, seminary has been an interesting experience. Towards conclusion my motivation has receded and I find myself studying fewer and fewer each week. Hebrew, unfortunately has taken the brunt of my lack of work. This is not to belittle the seminary experience or those going into pastoral ministry; in fact I commend pastoral candidates and tip my hat to them for their sense of calling. But it is hard to reconcile my previous and current grip on reality and the seminary teaching. Never once have we satiated basic questions, concerns before stepping into the more advanced questions -- in my opinion, poor handling. Must go, class.